All BoUt MuAxXxX!!!!

itz been a long tyme...

2009-06-05T05:47:00.000-07:00

yo ppl! it has been real long since ive written in this blog..loadz of updatez...well first of all ive been thinkin of goin mid valley for some nyce shoppin...heard therez an indian fair there...wohooo! will be goin tomm confirm!!! next is that im playin the violin for the punjabi choir..wow..thats an achievement...cant wait to go on stage!! goin to recite a poem also..itz a competition we alwayz have for the punjabis all over m'sia...great izzint it??? it has been real fun this holz...my couzins were down a few dayz back...had a blast with my aunt..went for choir practice..wohh! that was real funn...well therez only one worry now in my mind...FOLIOS..i dun think i will finish in tyme...gawd bless me...owh yea...NEW MOON! the official vid is out...omg...im sooooooooooooo excited...i think ill be the first one to be there in the cinemas with my fwenz!! hmmm...wad else?? omg yeah! theres a new song cb made...and sadly... i dunno watz the name!!! IVE BEEN SEARCHING ALL OVER...cant find it...crycry...well..i will someday...huhu...although i wont be the first...CRY!!!! new topic...ive been reading the latest galaxie(although itz the FEBRUARY issue..juz reading it) and i found out that there were many errors in the CHRIS BROWN AND RIHANNA fight...first of all...he did NOT punch her...HOW CAN A PERSON BLAME SUCH AN INNOCENT THING?? haizzzz..we will have to face lyfe...and maybe thats wat he is facing now...dun worry cb!! im still there for you...still praying for you...hahaxx..kay this wont stop!!! i shud go..bubye!!! tc ppl...thx for reading..

hmmm....

2009-04-12T01:38:00.000-07:00

well..im bak again...went skull...so didnt go punjabi class...huhuu...well...at least i got thru sej test...haha...got three wrongs...hmmm....i got this one song i wana dedicate to sm1...hope the person is reading my blog out there...here it is:

diagnosed with love-Chris Brown...

I'm Starin At The Clock
It's A Quarter To Three
I'm Tossin In My Bed
Cause I Jus Can't Sleep
Cause You're Not Here With Me
I'm Reachin Out For You
I Wish I Could Talk To You
Tryna Figure Out What's Goin On With Me
I'm Use To Havin All The Answers For Everything
Oh boy
I Think he Is The One
but where is that coming from

It's So Crazy
Baby you simply amaze me
So Much More
Than Lately
I Owe It All To You (Owe It All To You)
All Those Games We
Use To Play Now Seem So Lame To Me
What I'm Comin Down With is New To Me
All I Know Is That You Are The Cure
Cause I Been Diagnosed With Love

Does Anybody Know The Answer To This Question
Cause I'm Confused So Now
I'm Opened For Suggestions
My Heart Is Talkin Loud (So Loud)
What Is This About (About)
I'm Really Changin Now, Oh
Cleared All The Numbers Out My Phone
Then Left That Whole Life Alone
Those Are Two Of The Symptoms I See
And I Believe, Oh boy, I Am Sure
That You Are My Miracle

It's So Crazy
Baby you simply amaze me (You Amaze Me)
So Much More Than Lately (Yes I Am)
I Owe It All To You (Owe It All To You)
All Those Games We
Use To Play Now Seem So Lame To Me
What I'm Comin Down With is New To Me
(So New To Me, Can Somebody Tell Me)
All I Know Is That You Are The Cure
Cause I Been Diagnosed With Love

Let me hear you say na na na na na na(ooo wee)
na na na na na na(hey)
If anybody feels me let me see you wave your hand and say im diagnosed with love
Let me hear you say na na na na na na ohhh
na na na na na(baby)
boy cuz all i know that you are the cure baby(whoa)

It's So Crazy baby(baby) you simply amaze
me(you simply amaze me)so much more than lately(and i owe it all....and i owe it all to youuu oooohh)all those games we used to play baby all i know is that you are the cure cuz i been diagnosed with love

Looove, cuz i've been diagnosed with love
(ha)is that you are the cure cuz i've been diagnosed with love
put your hands together now everybody put your hands together now

(whisper)
you are the cure cuz i been diagnosed with love

thats true...im diagnosed with love...help me..theres oni one cure for this sickness...i dunno wat to do without the cure...help me...

haha! i knew smthin wasnt ryte!!!

2009-04-09T06:08:00.000-07:00

cb!! i knew u wouldnt betray me!! u see! now everyone believes me..when he says he is not guilty in court!!! muahaha!!! i knew it...haaaa...at least i can put my butt down for a while and chill...when i heard bout the newz...i was shocked and i couldnt even sit down..haha...waiting for this type of news to come out on tv or the newzpapers...weeheee!!! now i noe...that i cannot be wrong if im tokin bout the ones i love...i hope it is the same for the others...haha...!!! hmmm...i juz realized...after soooo long im writing in this blog...i hope that i will keep blogging...juz cant stop groovin to any beat i hear..haha..coz...im happy that my cb is innocent...i will foreva be faithful to hym only...coz i noe...when i love someone...i truely love someone who is free from all these stuff...and i also noe...that i cannot be wrong with these types of things...haha...hope to keep blogging soon...muakzzz...keep enjoying my blog...gtg..(go cb...my cb!!!)

sadly..i cant forget a thing bout u...

2009-02-12T01:34:00.000-08:00

isnt it obvious that ure truly my other half? ure alwayz there...in a crowd i dun care wat other ppl's updates except for yours...i always feel proud when anyone around u praises u...itz not that i dun give a damn to my fwenz...but itz that i alwayz feel protective of you and i feel good when i see you happy...u noe wat? want you to noe that i love you truely...i love u sooooo much...no one can eva break us apart...haixxx...itz my burpday today...humm...sooo bored...kenot go out...cant do anything much at home...but my parentz bought me the best thing that i ever wanted...a violin!!omg! thats lyke the first thing i really wanted in my life apart from my beloved...thank you god!!! thank you for keeping me safe for 14 years...thank you for taking care of me...thank you for seperating me from obstacles in lyfe...i noe there are still some...but i noe that everything you do is for the best...i noe one day you will be there with me to confront hym...lurve ya a lottt!!! violin here i come!!!!

chicken pox!(becoz of you robyn!)

2009-02-11T21:57:00.000-08:00

why do you have to haunt my life be4 my bday oh chicken pox...
now becoz of u im dying either in cold or fever oh chicken pox...
cold is becoz ive froze and fever is becoz im sick and tired...
of my most beloved that was juz blamed oh chicken pox...
they're blaming hym for everything...
for his angelic character,for his hawt look...
for sm1 who didnt even love hym truly,for his innocence...
if everyone already believed that he would do such a thing...
then ure definately wrong...
itz either he didnt mean to hurt her...
or he juz wanted to break up with her...
but im afraid she took advantage...
to destroy his courier...
so that everyone can have sympathy on her...
hOw PaThEtIc is that??
so now...
you win...
YOU HAPPY?
this is wat u had to do to hym...
DID U EVA THINK HOW HE WILL SURVIVE NOW??
do you like to see hym as a begger on the road??
i tot you both were role models...
i was wrong bout u...
if im seriously wrong bout this...
PROVE IT TO ME!

sickly sick...

2009-02-09T20:58:00.000-08:00

i gotta go thru this now only...when my birthday's near and when i need to be in skul...ughh...why are you alwayz lingering around me??everywhere i only see one person...and thats u...why?? becoz i see god in you??(tujhme rab dikhta hein)or what?? WHAT izzit in you that really attracts me to come forward to you only?? why cant i juz look at a rich guy and feel for hym dat way? why you?? somehow...you pull me towards u...and i juz cant stop...stop coming bak to you...stop thinking of you...stop...loving you...itz sooooooo hard for me you noe...why does god make us suffer before we get smthin?? why doesnt he juz give us if he wants to?? why muz we juz cry for what we want?? to rememba hym??but what if ure alwayz the pious type...and u alwayz cherish god...why does he still make us suffer? itz so complicated...i juz dunno how to live a life thats so painful and filled with so much of sorrowness...i cant take it...someday my head's gonna burst and i think i may end in a hospital infront of a psycitrist...pray for me u guys...dun make this life useless...and i'll pray for all of you bak...this is how the world is ryte?? to give and take...haixxx...hope u all are not having this kind of probz and hope u all will not have it in future...thats a prayer...
love yall...
GUR...

juz cant stop!!!

2009-02-08T04:22:00.000-08:00

cant stop thinking bout u...why are you alwayz there? why dont u juz fade away...my life will be much more easier than feeling this guilt when i'm around u...why dont i juz let u go? is that what u really want from me? to let u go? i dun think thats possible...my world is all bout madness(becoz i have neva thought to leave u eventhough u are still not mine yet...)...i duno wat to do...i guess i'll have to confront u myself...coz...i understand ure shy and ure the most angelic thing ive eva seen in lyfe...but...isnt life all bout breaking the rules?? thats when we at least feel the fun once in a while...well...there are a bit improvements between me and u...lyke u started disturbing me and u being a little brave to come in front of me and being able to stare at me eventhough i noe u are staring...thats improvement...but...when will this end?? when will u come to me?? muz u really wait until itz too late?? are u testing me?? are you trying to see how faithful i am to you?? but...okay maybe for a while itz allryte...but u cant be lyke doing this for yearz ryte...if u really are testing me,pls pls PLS dun let me freak out...and make it too late...but...i assure u that i will neva stop praying for you lyke i alwayz do and i dun want this to lengthen summore...enough is ENOUGH...one thing i gotta say...dun test people's patience...itz not bout me...but...im scared if u do this to others...they might not lyke it...im tellin this for ur own good...coz...ure the most precious thing in the world that ive eva had...i cant see you breaking down...i wont be able to control myself...maybe ure feeling different...but im sure u seriously dunno how does a gal feel when she's neglected...she feels insecure when ure not there...pls do me a favour...pls help me...help me control my hardly controlable mind...u are the only one who can do it...and who i trust more than my life...lurve ya...

u noe wat?? i juz realized adam sandler is quite cute...

2009-01-26T04:07:00.000-08:00

wow...after sooooooooo long im posting on this blog again....i think thats good newz...i have been soooo bz lately...soo much hw...omg! i have no time to breathe...even on saturdays...those days are the time i hold back when i see my most precious thing in the world...well...itz kinda working...haha..thank god...the one comes to me and stands near me and gives me signals....wow...this is a good year for me...i think i will give it a shot this year...i hope...hey today i went for a movie...Bedtime Stories...guess who i met today...azian!!! what a co-incidence...we went for the SAME movie at the SAME time...i saw her sys first...Alia...shes a nice gal...juz lyke her sys...after soooo long i met her... itz a real relieve...well at least my mom saw her...i dunno why my mum really wanted to see her...haha...humm...owh yea...ADAM SANDLER...wow...hawt...cool...good acting...funny guy...and cute!!!haha...but i dun think he is really capable in my list...so...i'll consider it...haha...okay...i gtg ready...i noe this post i quite short...but...the movie was fun...specially when my sys was there....kay see ya!!!

another new year.....

2009-01-01T22:29:00.000-08:00

Happy new year everyone! hurmmm...i hope itz a gud year ahead for all of us...and i hope all my dreamz that ive alwayz longing for will come true...itz a new year...wow...cant believe...one moment i felt i was a junior in my school...now...haixxx...im a...itz hard to say it...im a....a....SENIOR!!!!cry... i feel school years are passing soooo fast...and i think ill be working in a jiffy...omg...am i ready for all this?? will i be able to pass all the obstacles in lyfe?? will God alwayz be there with me when im in trouble??wow...this is gonna be hard...but...sm ppl once said...u mus enjoy ur life to the max... and i think thats wat im doin now...and i hope i will succeed...god...pls show me the path to your world...to your heaven...and i will neva forget that uve been there for me one single time... NEVA!!! i will appreciate what i have and i will neva complain for anything thats bad... i would neva think bout sorrowness when ure there to cherish my life...and i will neva regret coming into this world...eva... welll...hope life will be more greater than last year...and hope that all will be well...wishing u all a very happy new year...and may u all be always happy and blessed!!!

bak in ipoh!!!!!

2008-12-27T20:46:00.000-08:00

FINALLY!!!!! haa....i feel secure here...no one even dare to approach me when im with my mum and dad...let me tell u a tale that happened in klang...okay...i happend when me and my sys went with my grandma to the shoppin mall(juzco)...so we had a great tyme with clothes...especially me...and then my sys enjoyed her meals in kfc...and then...we totally shopped to the max!!! as usual larr... so when it was tyme to go we were early coz our gran dad was supposed to pick us up at 4 o'clock and we were ready by 3.30....so we decided to sit down smwhere and chit chat...when it was time, we decided to go out and see wether my gran dad was already there...normally, my grandad is alwayz punctual...but we were surprised that he was not there eventhough it was already quarter pass four...so me n my sys decided to go to the telephone booth to call and check out where he is...bad luck...we forgot his hp numb...ughh....and then we decided to call our aunt who was at home...she said, that my grand dad had already left the house 15 minutes ago...and then...we were shocked coz juzco was very near to the house...so then we went bak to our grandmom and told her...then she asked us to go bak there and call our aunt bak and ask her to call our grandpa and ask where is he now...that tyme..when we were on the way...some stupid indian guys saw us walking alone and decided to follow us...ughh...and they were disturbing me...stupid...i juz felt lyke kicking their butts!!! ughh...then thank god.. there was a bathroom nearby and we decided to run into it there...haha...that was close...then after a few mins...we decided to check where were they...and they were gone...ughh...i juz felt lyke slapping them...i was soooooo irritated...then...thank god...we quickly went to the phone booth and hurriedly called my aunt again becoz so and so...then... we decided to take the nearest exit and we quickly and carefully leaped to my grandmum...haaaaa...then i felt secure...ughh...i was sooooo damn furious with them...but now...it doesnt matter...now that god had already made me soo beautiful...haha....kay...i gtg eat..lunch tyme now....bb!!!!

im so done with it....

2008-12-21T21:17:00.000-08:00

okay...ive convinced myself dat wateva is happenin to me is as test from god...he's making me get ready for all the obstacles in lyfe...now i realize...and be happy with wat uve got...neva complain of wat u dun have...itz really bad...and thats what ive been doin all along...i think that we muz juz enjoy wateva dat comes and go in life...and if we get smthing,we muz think that itz a blessing from god and thank him for wateva u have...and then...u will neva eva drop in lyfe...and u muz not forget that ure healthy becoz of who... everyone out there...juz do wat u wanna do today and get over it...dun wait until the next day....u might not noe...u might be too late...enjoy this next song im gonna dedicate...

T.I. ft Rihanna-Live your Life

You're gonna be a shining star, with fancy clothes, and fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, just who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
You Steady Chasin that paper.
Just live your life (Oh! ), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Ay! ), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take ya.
Just live your life (Oh! ), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just living my life

Never mind what haters say, ignore them 'til they fade away.
Amazing they ungrateful after all the game I gave away.
Safe to say I paved the way, for you cats to get paid today.
You still be wasting days away now had I never saved the day.
Consider them my protégé, homage I think they should pay.
Instead of being gracious, they violate in a major way.
I never been a hater still I love them, in a crazy way.
Some say they so yay and no they couldn't get work on Labor day.
It aint that they black or white, their hands a area the shade of grey.
I'm West side anyway, even if I left the day it stayed away.
Some move away to make a way not move away cause they afraid.
I'll go back to the hood and all you ever did was take away.
I pray for patience but they make me want to melt they face away.
Like I once made them scream, now I could make them plead their case away.
Been thuggin' all my life, can't say I don't deserve to take a break.
You'd rather see me catch a case, and watch my future fade away.

You're gonna be a shining star, with fancy clothes, and fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, just who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
Instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh! ), ay ay ay.
You got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Oh! ), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take ya.
Just live your life (Oh! ), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just Livin My Life.

I'm the opposite of moderate, immaculately polished with the spirit of a hustler and the swagger of a college kid.
Allergic to the counterfeit, impartial to the politics.
Articulate but still would grab a nigga by the collar quick.
Whoever havin problems, with they record sale just holla TIP.
If that don't work and all else fails, then turn around and follow TIP.
I got love for the game but ay I'm not in love with all of it.
I do without the fame and the rappers nowadays are comedy.
The hootin' and the hollerin', back and forth with the arguing.
Where you from, who you know, what you make and what kind of car you in.
Seems as though you lost sight of what's important with the positive.
And checks until your bank account, and you're about poverted.
Your values is a disarrayed, prioritizing horribly.
Unhappy with the riches cause you miss-poor morally.
Ignoring all prior advice and fore warning.
And we mighty full of ourselves all of a sudden aren't we?

You're gonna be a shining star, with fancy clothes, and fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, just who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
Instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh! ), ay ay ay.
You got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Oh! ), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take ya.
Just live your life (Oh! ), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)

Now everybody watchin what I do
Come walk in my shoes
And see the way that I'm livin if you really want to
I got my mind on my money and I'm not goin nowhere
So keep on gettin yo paper(ah ah)
And keep on climbin
Look in the mirror
And keep on shinin
Til the game end
Til the clock stop
We gon' post up on the top spot
Livin' the life, the life

In the brand new city
Got my whole team with me
Livin my life, my life
I do it how I wanna do
I'm livin' my life, my life
I will never loose 'em
Livin my life, my life
And I'm not stoppin

So live your life!!!!!!!

why does it have to be so complicated??

2008-12-21T00:21:00.000-08:00

i found out...u were lying to me...how could you to this to me??i trusted you more than my lyfe...i loved you soooooo much...i cant tell u how unconditionally i loved u...i tot...u were an angel that came into my lyfe to help me shine...but...u hated me...all along...now i noe...i dont demand anything from u...but im dissapointed in you...why didnt u juz give me off...or told me in a nyce way that u felt really uncomfy of wat i was doing to you...and i tot that u were there for me...and i tot u at least had a little love for me...i tot we were having fun...i tot that we were going on well...why??since when??how?? im sooo confused...and im scared to show my tears to anyone...coz im scared...i might burst until i cant control myself...if u keep doin dis...i dun think i can stay here anymore..id rather change my skul than seeing u everyday...smiling at me...u were wearing a mask juz to make me happy...how can u do this to me??didnt u ever think that how will i act when i find out wat were u doin?? what will u answer when i asked u what was ure prob?? why didnt u juz avoid me?? why didnt u juz tell me the truth... i hate it... when sm1 keeps away smthin from me...ughh....and especially sm1 i love...so much...i love u soooooo much....one thing i gotta say is if i love sm1...i REALLY love that person...theres no way anyone can change that...i loved u that i dun think a sys has eva loved her sys that much be4...i dun think anyone has eva loved her sys lyke i did...thats how much i love u...muz i even prove it to you?? i tot u knew?? u left me many questions wondering in my mind now...i have no idea wat to do...no idea where to go?? itz either...me confronting u to demand the truth,me letting u go quietly...or...me juz live with the fact that u will neva love me....

pheww!!! many obstacles juz to go watch a movie!!!

2008-12-20T03:04:00.000-08:00

it all started in 1918....haha...when edward was born...in case u all pogot...haha...urmm...owh yea...we booked tickets for the new movie Rab Ne Bana di Jodhi...where Shah Rukh Khan is acting in...haha...so...it all started when we were on the comp to book the tickets...and my dumb sys went and book tickets without even our permission about the seats...she booked it yesterday...we were supposed to see the movie today...so we were really excited for the movie...especially me...i was already deciding what to wear for the movie...itz lyke i have neva gone for a movie be4...haha...continuing...it was a 11.45 show...so we had to be there at least 1 hour be4 the movie to get the tickets in our hands...i was too excited until i couldnt sleep the whole nyte...wondering when the night is gonna end...haha...for the first tyme...i had a few dumb dreams that i dun think it would come true...haha...so...finally in the mornin when my sys and my grandma came to wake me up...i was in my own dreamz...i guess i might have slept off wondering when was those monsterous moments were gonna be over...ughh...i was all droopy when i came down...when my whole family was already packing food and some changing their clothes in the room...i felt soo blurr there...and when i took my towel to go and bathe...ughh...my aunt went in and then i knock my face on the door...OUCH!!!that hurt...quite a lot...a few minutes later...i went in the bathroom with my flat nose...and cleaned...owh no...i mean SCRUBBED myself till the max...it seemed lyke i was on a date...haha...continuing...everyone were knocking the bathroom door thinking i had slept in the bathroom...i am lyke"yea...im coming...IM COMING!!!"...finally...i got out...ahah..i looked purrfect....i am sorry i think uve mistaken...itz not a date...im juz going for a MOVIE for heavens sake...haha...so then...we were quite late for the movie already...we left at 10...when we were supposed to reach there at 10.45...omg!! we were late...and we didnt even noe the way to the complex as it was quite new...suddenly my grandma wasnt really happy with my hair...so i had to change my hair style last minute...haha...and then...as we were on the way...OMG!!!die...jam!! i mean traffic JAM...not to be rude..haha..my uncle was quite impatient coz we were getting all restless...but...i had quite a good tyme...thinking...thinking...and thinking...thinking how is "everyone" doing without me...in ipoh...haha...anyone missin me??i dun think so...maybe...a little...but i dun expect...there was a lot in my mind...all machines working...haha...then...we had quite a difficuilty finding it...the tyme we reached it was already 11.30...omg!! and 11.45 was our show!! so...we ran up...and then...the operater or wateva said that booking paymentz are closed so our bookings are all deleted...i was lyke...wat the hell!! then i quickly asked..."are any seats available now??"..."yea...we have...why dont u take a look??"...pheww...we got juz the purrfect seating for ourselves...and omg!!! the movie was soo purrfect... a little of it was a bit lyke the story of my lyfe...and i hope it will end juz lyke the same as the movie...purrfect!!!that was hell of a day...i was soo exhausted...i slept in the car on the way bak...haha...the movie was good...it was worth going that far to watch it...i dun mind watching it again...owh yea...i pogot...im downloading it ryte now...omg!! cant wait to see it!!! gtg larr...gotta go pray...see yall...id recommend you to watch the movie...itz damn nyce...gtg...mwuahxxxx....

itz u and only u....

2008-12-17T22:20:00.000-08:00

i think i was only born for you...i've no other objective in this world but to be with you...but...sadly...im not yours yet...maybe god hasnt showed you the way that he has shown me yet...dun worry...it will be soon...and all our misunderstanding will be over and we will live our lives to the max...i will neva let you miss anything in life...i will give you everything u want...i will do wateva it takes to make you happy...thats a promise for life...and i will neva forgive myself if i have broken this little promise...please understand me...and i hope these lousy days will pass soon enough as a blink of an eye...i dont want this life between me and u to be draggy..i dun want it to be too borink for us...it will be juz u and me...i cant think of any other thing...in this world..i feel that ure the only thing that was ment for me for lyfe...i noe u are somewhere out there...and i juz want you to noe that im here...and waiting for you every second in my lyfe for you to come to me...and i would wanna apologize too...to keep you waiting...wat i feel is that u should approach me...coz i wont be able to stand it if i do it...im shy...i blush for everything that i feel protective of when my fwenz disturb me...i noe u dun believe it...but i do...and when we're together...i'll make you believe it...i promize u...u should have trusted me...and this story will not go on lyke this...but...i believe that all stories have their own twists...we will have to face it in lyfe...and the most important thing is to trust one another...and not let anyone come in our way...thats wat i dream of all day and all nyte...and i still wish upon the stars that u'll be mine soon...and i believe i would get you no matter what happenz...this song that im gonna type here is dedicated to you and all the others who are having the same prob as im having now...n ppl dun worry...some1 up there is alwayz watching you and he will fullfill your dreamz if you only believe in hym...

TUM SE HI-JAB WE MET
Na hai yeh pana(neither does this mean that i've got you)
Na Khona hi hai (nor does it mean that i've lost you)
Tera Na hona jane (dont noe why even in your absence,my love)
Kyun hona hi hai (seems lyke ure present everywhere around me)

Tum se hi din hota hai (my day begins with your thoughts)
Surmaiye shaam aati (and the dawns are made beautiful with you)
Tumse hi tumse hi (with you...juz with you...)

Har ghadi saans aati hai (each moment i breathe for you)
Zindagi kehlati hai (each moment makes my lyfe...)
Tumse hi tumse hi (with you...only with you...)

Na hai yeh pana (neither does this mean that i've got you)
Na Khona hi hai (nor does it mean that i've lost you)
Tera Na hona jane (dont noe why even in your absence,my love)
Kyun hona hi hai (seems lyke ure present everywhere around me)

Aankhon mein ankhne teri (my eyes are lost in yourz...)
Bahoon mein baahein teri (my arms embrace you in them...)
Mera na mujhe mein kuch raha (nothing seems to be mine anymore)
hua kya (dont noe wat happened)

Baaton mein baatein teri (even my talks are full of you...)
Raatein saugatein teri (my nights seem to be a gift from you...)
Kyun tera sab yeh ho gaya (why has my everything turn yourz...)
hua kya (dont noe wat happened)

Mein kahin bhi jata hoon (anywhere i might go...)
Tumse hi mil jata hoon (seems like i'll meet you...)
Tumse hi tumse hi (itz about you...juz about you..)

Shoor mein khamoshi hai (there seems to be silence admist noise)
Thodi se Behoshi hai (a little bit of dizzyness prevails...)
Tum se hi tum se hi (itz bout you...juz bout you...)

Aadha sa wada kabhi (half a promize...somtimes..)
Aadhe se jayada kabhi (and sometimes...more than half)
Jee chahe karlu is trah (my heart wants to make with you...)
wafa ka(a promize of loyalty...)
Chode na chote kabhi (this bond cant be left...even willingly)
Tode na tute kabhi (it cant be broken...even if i try...)
Jo dhaga tumse jud gaya (the thread which draped us as one...)
wafa ka(the thread of commitment...)

Mein Tera sharmaya hoon (im indebted to you...)
Jo bhi mein ban paya hoon (for everything ive achieved...)
Tumse hi tumse hi (is becoz of you...and only becoz of you...)
Raste miljate hai (i find my wayz by itself...)
Manzile miljati hai (i find my destinations soo easy now...)
Tumse hi tumse hi (itz becoz of you...all becoz of you...)

Na hai yeh pana (neither does this mean that i've got you)
Na Khona hi hai (nor does it mean that i've lost you)
Tera Na hona jane (dont noe why even in your absence,my love)
Kyun hona hi hai (seems lyke ure present everywhere around me)

hoped you enjoyed the songs...i transelated it in english so all my other fwenz can understand it too...byezzz....

signing off..
gur

beautiful momentz gone!

2008-12-12T04:52:00.000-08:00

i guess lyfes not a fairy tale...but isnt it there if u believe itz there?? i juz look bak at the tyme i enjoyed and i shiver when i think of them...why?? am i craving for those magnificent seconds?? what if they dont come bak?? what if they are POOF!!! gone?? wat am i to do?? what did i do wrong?? where am i supposed to go?? im soo lost...lyke in a thick forest without a compass...those beautiful sites...those flawless things we've done... have they dissapeared?? maybe itz juz me...the stupid old ugly me...but what if itz real?? these things make my head spin and spin until i juz feel dat im gonna collapse...i have nothing... i only have you god... and u cb... and u edward...and my parentz...plus my fwenz...nothin else...okay maybe itz smthink...but...itz common...aint it?? why dont i have things dat mostly all of them have?? i mean my other half...why?? is it really a test dat i have to pass?? i noe sm ppl said...BE HAPPY WITH WATEVA U HAVE...but...dont u get bored with wat u have?? musn't we move on?? CONFUSED OLD ME...but...well..haha...there are alwiyz exceptions...datz me...i have many questions dat might not be answered for the rest of my whole lyfe...datz a fact that i dun think i can change...

i guess mayb we juz gotta go our own way someday huh??

2008-12-08T22:37:00.000-08:00

hey guys...well...times passing soooo fast dat i didnt realize that 13 years have passed in a blink of an eye...i cant believe it...im reaching 14 and i feel im getting old...haha...no wrinkles yet though...but...u juz cant accept the fact that uve already enjoy in your childhood...time is passing lyke a jet plane...someday... we all juz gotta leave all the fwenz that have alwiyz been there with you when ure in pain...itz gonna be sooooo ughh!!! i will mizz all my fwenz...especially my class mates...fwenz come and go in your lyfe...some are true fwenz...some are fake...im lucky to have true fwenz...and im hoping that we will stay in touch foreva eventhough we are a world apart...okay...i think u might feel that im crapping ryte?? actually i am...and im known as the QUEEN of crappink..haha...kay...i gtg...see yall...!!! mizz all of you all who are mizzin me...hehe...and who are not oso larr...k larr i give chance...hehe...byeeeeeee

2008-12-06T05:13:00.000-08:00

hey ppls!!! im in kl finally...well...i tot this will distract me to do smthin else but cmin here is lyke...it made me feel more possibilities to mizz all my fwenz...ughh!! i cant take it anymore!! so much preasure on me...as being the eldest daughter and as being a systa to my annoyin sys...as being a purrfect pwefect n student...as being a fwen whos always being there...as being a princess to sm1 i love more than my lyfe... and an ordinary gal who lives in this world lyke every other person... im sick and tired of it!!! ive neva been in this state be4..i have nowhere else to go...im stuck...in this stinking world...i wish i could go far away from this galaxie and neva cme bak...sad...ill have to go thru all this consequences in lyfe...in order to success...and to reach the top...but what if u juz decide not to do it? what if uve reach that state and youre not happy that uve done it? is there a way to turn bak?? wouldnt it be difficuilt? this juz drives me crazy...i might land in a mental hospital smday...the reason why im thinking ahead is mayb becoz if have this little wish dat ill become a good scientist smday...a famous one...touch wood...ughh!! help me!! im in an emotional state now...and i dunno what to do...where to go...and what to achive and what not...im confused..

my cb....

2008-11-30T22:21:00.000-08:00

why does he sound juz lyke cb?? when he toks...he sounds lyke cb...then when he walks...he does it juz lyke cb...what is he? a carbon copy of cb? can i col hym my cb? what if hes not mine? would i have da gutz to col hym mine?? MINE?? MY CB?? what if hes mine....oOoOo...ill faint... i will neva eva come bak to live...ill be...immortal...haha...edward!!! dun woli ill still be with you with you with you with you with you....haha...urmm..i noe im crapping...but...i juz tell what really comes in my mind...i feel lyke dis is my diary...except dat...itz a sharing diary...kay...dumb...well...i am so bored!!! i feel the times passing sooooooooooo slooooowwwwww....drooping...ughh! i miss everyone!!! i mizz my fwenz...i miss my skul... i miz my teachers...i mizz my duty...and lastly... i miss azian!!!! WHY has there to be holz?? why cant we juz go skul foreva?? or mayb with oni two weeks of holz?? i tell you... this is the worst tyme of my lyfe... itz keeping me from all of my fwenz and FAMILY...haha... i think u noe wat im toking bout...haha...urmm...well ill be goin to kl this saturday...at least i can distract my mind from my home and fwenz... i noe ill have fun...but...itz juz not as same as the fun i have in skul...itz juz...the different type of fun... i dunno how to explain...haha...i think u all understand...ill mizz my cb...MY CB...i dunno... ughh... UGHH!!!! it seems lyke 10 stinking yearz i didnt see hym...ughh...i think i got a solution!! TING!!! ill juz hear his songs and it'll remind me of hym sitting next to me!!! smart!!! YeSsSsS!!! ill do it...gtg!!!! tnx for giving me the idea...luv u all loadz...

2008-11-27T19:11:00.000-08:00

ahem ahem!!! ahoy fwenz!!! well this is a pic of my family form one and two...haha...well...from the left as you can see is mizz aandrea oon...and beside her is mizz avi...then itz lil mizz lillian..haha...and then is mizz hawt jaayshini...then below jaayshini is her godsys...nadhirah...well shes a little annoying...but...shes nyce...haha...then it comez to my one and only systa!!! hey azian!!! hehe...well...nyce pose...hehe...well my sys wad...ehe...well...then itz rose...well...she really loves to play da piano...but maybe she juz cant...well if i cud...i would teach her...i think datz all i gotta say...enjoy looking da pic...well i took it datz why itz purrfect...ehe...ahemx...see ya soon!!!!!

why are you sooo purrfect chris b??

2008-11-26T18:49:00.000-08:00

look at you!!! and look at me...how would i be as purrfect as you are if u dun show me how? well how can i make it ryte for you?when will you come to ask for my hand? ive been waiting for quite a long tyme...my body is froze...every part of me is cold...my hearts aching...souls breaking and ive nowhere else to go!!!! frozen...omg...im so cold...my bodys frozen...looking at you soo purrfect...well i noe dat ure the oni one whos alwiyz truthful to me...no one else is alwiyz lyke you...youre the only one who understands me...by creating ur songs...i feel dat ure watching me...and writing them to me... well... keep going...i love you!!! fore-e-eva!!! with you with you with you with you with you boy!!!! haha ...mwuahxxxxxx....

Why? Why? Why?

2008-11-25T21:40:00.000-08:00

why did you eva left me...you let me go...now...im all alone...until we meet again, i think i might not have dat strength i use to have...tell me what to do... i am breathless... i juz feel dat ure there lookin at me but youre invisible... why dun you juz come to me and show me how to shine...i am not lyke you...okay...maybe a bit...lyke me and u being shy... being smart...touch wood...haha...urmm...there are more similarities...but i dun think this page will be enough...well...itz juz... im not me when ure not there... but when i try to be me... i dun turn out well... well everyone thinks dat you also feel the same way bout me...but...why dun u juz admit?? itz not dat the world will end ryte after lettin me noe... itz not lyke im gonna jump up da sky and neva fall down... itz not lyke ill neva take it seriously...or maybe...maybe u juz fell da way i do...u might be thinking da same way dat i do... u too feel dat im hurting you... but how?? in wat way?? wat did i say?? well... i hope you are reading my blog somewhere out there... i dun care whether u feel da same for me or not...but i will alwiyz and alwiyzzzzzzz forever be with you....i will love you till death do us apart... well...this is a song for you...it shows how i feel...

Chris Brown - Froze Lyrics :-

ive lost my temperature
where've all my sunny days gone
is there any place to stay warm
its not easy when your gone
tell me how im s'pose to go on
right now i dont be strong

with the rain
comes more pain
u never know (damn the weather)
hard to hide
when i cry
this pain inside (aint ge'n better)
body shakes
i feel so numb (nuuumb)
im shiverin
why did you go

my body is froze
every part of me cold
my hearts achin
and i cant breathe
souls breakin
minus 31 degreese
nowhere else to go
froze

my heart stuggles to beat yeah
i need a life line
and i would rather die
before i, start to freeze yeah
live my life in fear, no way

with the rain
comes more pain
u never know (damn the weather)
hard to hide
when i cry
this pain inside (aint ge'n better)
body shakes
i feel so numb (nuuumb)
im shiverin
why did you go

my body is froze
every part of me cold
my hearts achin
and i cant breathe
souls breakin
minus 31 degreese
nowhere else to go
froze

i am so cold
my body's frozen
i am so cold
frozen

froze (my body is froze)

my body is froze
every part of me cold
my hearts achin
and i cant breathe
souls breakin
minus 31 degreese
nowhere else to go
froze

eclipse & breaking dawn!! dun worry...i got u...

2008-11-24T17:40:00.000-08:00

i have juz finished eclipse yesterday...omg!!! itz freakin nyce...thank god i got it before the vouchers...managed to persuade my mom...thats what im good in...haha...so breaking dawn should be the most interesting coz bella i supposed to choose between edward and jacob...who do you think she will choose? the one she loved more than herself...or the one who had alwayz been the cure for her deep wounds...well itz gonna be hard for her...but...i think she is definately gonna choose edward...but i think jacobs nyce too!!! omg!!! haha...if i was bella...i may need psycitrist(dono how to spell)...haha...kay...i will post again...dun woli...haha...dun miss me...muaxxx...

eclipse!!! here i come!!! yahooooooooo

2008-11-17T21:45:00.000-08:00

well...when edward leaves bella in new moon...after that it becomes a little bowink...jacob comes in da scene and starts to fall in luv with bella...but i felt that edward should get an award for being better than romeo in romeo and juliet...omg!!! he is sooo damn romantic...i cannot describe how sweet he is in words...i dunno how to express it in letters...i dunno...and now!!! i cant get eclipse until i get those stupid popular vouchers which i oni can get next week...i will seriously be bored...and i will seriously feel dat this week will past the longest...i am telling you...='[

my 'kind of' first date....

2008-11-16T00:20:00.001-08:00

hey everyone!!! hols are sooo bowink!!! well datz wat every one alwiyzzz say... i kind of enjoyed my first two days of hols...well...i went out for a date...with...my grandpa...haha...we went to buy roti canai...for the whole family...so my grandpa asked me out on a date...it was quite fun...we slurpped our drinks...and was giggling all along...while we were having fun, other guys were also flirting with me...haha...they were staring at me...as if i am an alien or smthing...aiyooo...well i lyked this guy who flirted with me...first i saw him staring at me...then i quickly put my head down...i saw through my side eyes and i cought hym still staring at me...so i shot hym and evil stare...but...he wuz supposed to lyke...shy away...but...the funny part wuz...he wuz smiling...omg!! he wuz quite cute...then i oso started smiling...haha...then he lyke terasa...omg!!! suddenly i saw my grandpa at the counter without knowing...omg!!! then i felt lyke an innocent cute human being wuz going to be exposed to the big bad world...a guy almost got up and he wuz heading towards me...i got scared...it wuz lyke he was goinna kidnap me or smthing...then...suddenly my saviour, my grandpa came bak to me...omg!!! i have neva felt safer with my family...well...beside that...we had a lotta fun...as soon as we went bak, haha...my parents and my aunt and uncle were starving...haha...and they tot that we were lost or we forgot about them...actually...to tell u the truth...we actually forgot bout them...haha...it remained as a secret between me, my grandpa and u!!! haha...shhhh...dun tell anyone kay!!!!ehe...

OMG!!! twilight!!!

2008-11-10T17:44:00.001-08:00

omg!!! edward is sooo hawt!!! look at hymm...omg!!! he is a dream come true...beside chris brown, colby o donis,sagar in banoo mein teri dulhan,shahid kapoor,david archuleta...there are lotz actually... he is in my list...in twilight...he is sooo swt...romantic...any gal would love to have a boo lyke hymm...omg!!! i wish my lyfe waz lyke bella's...itz lyke you cant believe you get a person dat youre wanting sooo much....haaaaaaaa... i am sooo in luv with his hawtness...he is sooo cute....cant wait for twilight to come out...i will be the first wan in da cinemas...yan!!! im takin you i dun care...owh yea...aan,jaay,lil,anu...you can join tooo...swt!!! letz get da tickets ASAP!!! cant wait to see hymm...wait for me in da screens...i dunno...i might tear off the whole projector thingy...anu...i think you will have to take care of your mother this tyme...haha...

class party wuz great...

2008-11-08T21:02:00.000-08:00

well...hello everyone again...well da class party was nyce...me and my fwenz had a great tyme togetha...well first there were sme complications...the mca gang wanted to get wet in da rain...but...me and my fwenz didnt feel gud bout getting wet...lil juz couldnt coz she would get sick after getting wet...anu juz didnt want to get wet... jaay waz not in da scene coz she wuz bz finding a pair of pants for herself...i wanted to get wet but...i tot teachers will mind...already we had a bad impression on the teachers...i tot we shouldnt make things worst...so...we didnt play in da rain...ahaxxx...and thank god we didnt get in trouble...haha...but we sure had fun...we partied to da max...nadhirah joined us for a short while...which startled jaay a little...by nads presents, jaay felt as comfortable as she wuz sleepin on her luxurious bed...well she felt great dat day...i wondered wat azian wuz doing...well...maybe god heard me and sent her to our class door...she coled for me and everyone wuz lyke whoa!!! i wuz lyke...urmm...so umm??? curious wat she wanted from me....then she juz wanted to take a pic with me...i felt a little umcomfy coz shamin wuz there...i didnt want to hurt her...so i told azian we can go somewhere else n take a pic...but she wuz lyke dun woli larr...then we took a purrfect pic togetha...well...memories...gonna mizz her next year...='[

it juz aint ryte if im not with you...

2008-11-07T18:20:00.000-08:00

why do i alwayz feel different when i dun see you around me?? are you my lucky charm?? i dun feel gud when youre not around... wat shall i do?? juz let the feelin go 4eva or juz confront you and tell you wat i really feel bout you?? i am confused...itz either i get you or not...or either i juz dun get you... i feel i shud give it a shot...but...i have no guts...2 juz tok to you...well all those rumours...it waz all a lie...some dumb ppl made rumours...and i am stuck in da middle...OMG!!! its sooo hard....lyfes all a game... ppl say play hard to get...but...i play hard...i juz dun get...maybe i am not tryin dat hard...i dunno...i juz dunno wat to do...cry...well...heres a song...which i think itz ryte for this situation...

SHONTELLE-T shirt

Hey, ohh, let me tell you no.
Oh baby.
Trying to decide, trying to decide if I, really wanna go out tonight.
I never use to go out without you, I'm not sure I remember how to.
I'm gonna be late gonna be late but, all my girls gonna have to wait cause,
I don't know if I like my outfit.
I tried everything in my closet.

Nothing feels right when I'm not with you, sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool, trying to dress up when I'm missing you.
Ima step out of this lingerie, curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
In that I lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
Oh, with nothing but your t-shirt on.

Hey, gotta be strong gotta be strong but I'm, really hurting now that you're gone.
I thought maybe I'd do some shopping, but I didn't get past the door and, now I don't know now I don't know if I'm, ever really gonna let you go and I, couldnt even leave my appartment.
I'm stripped down torn up about it.

Trying to decide, trying to decide if I, really wanna go out tonight.
I couldn't even leave my appartment, I'm stripped down torn up about it.

Nothing feels right when I'm not with you, sick of this dress and these jimmy choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool, trying to dress up when I'm missing you.
Ima step out of this lingerie, curl up in a ball with something hanes.
In that I lay.

Hey hey, nothing feels right when I'm not with you.
Sick of this dress and these jimmy choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool, trying to dress up when I'm mising you.
Ima step out of this lengerie, curl up in a ball with something hanes.
In that I lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
In nothing but your t-shirt on

2008-11-06T17:43:00.000-08:00

hey ppl!!! urmm....take a look at this pic...isnt it familiar?? well...many ppl fall for this pic...che...mengade kes...haha...well....have i eva asked you dis question?? why am i sooo beautiful?? why am i sooo hawt?? wat am i?? hawt shawtie?? haha...kk...id betta stop now....coz....i noe my fwenz will start puking...especially lil...haha...hi mommy!!! itz a thang we play in skul...mothers and daughterz...haha....itz soo fun....cheryl is first...then jaay is her daughter...then aan is jaays daughter...lil is aans daughter...lil is my mum...and i have 3 kidz...haha... anu...ruby....and san....haha...plus!! i do have a sys...of coz itz yan...but this is bluff wan larr...dun woli yan...i will neva eva betray you...kay! continuing...hilda from 1 BR is ma 'bluff' sys...haha...jgn merajuk yerr yan...saye saja jerr..ehe...kay now!! i think im crapping too much...id betta stop!! ehex...kay ppl! dun miss me !!! if you need me juz think bout me... i will be there in a snap...astalavista....babe....

this is for you yan!!!

2008-11-05T17:51:00.001-08:00

Tnx for alwiyz being there for me...muaxxxx...youve neva eva make me feel dat youre not dere...how do you do it?? i try it...but itz just i dun suceed...well i dunno how to thank you... only thing i can do is to alwayz wish dat every thing turnz out well for you...4eva...lurrve yaa...i am sowee if ive done anythin wrong as i dun mean to...i am innocent...(mengade kes)...as usual...i hope we remain as what we are now...or maybe better... i am seriously gonna mizz you next year...cry...i hope you will neva poget me...in one year...then i will be there to rawk your world in another yearz tyme...but i hope we will still be in touch...cry...i dunno wethere this is a feeling but when i am in pain...i dun feel it when i am with you...every thing feels purrfect when im with you...i feel sooo happy with you...i am the luckiest person to have you as my sys...hehe... owh yea be4 i poget...dis song is for you...i noe ive gave you ready...but i am givin you again...lurve you....
SUPERHUMAN-chris brown ft keri hilson

Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I could barely speak?
Barely eat?
On my knees

Well that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible, I see
Through the me, I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me, with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman

I feel so superhuman (superhuman)
I feel so superhuman

Strong
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I've had it all along
I can see tomorrow

Well every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelieveable to see how love could set me free

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me, with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman

I feel so superhuman (superhuman)
I feel so superhuman

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going gone away
My only weakness is you
My only reason is you
Every minute with you
I feel like I can do
Anything
Going going I'm gone away
In love

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me, with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman
Superhuman!!!

i swear!! this crush aint goin away!!!

2008-11-04T17:50:00.000-08:00

why are you alwayz in my mind?? why cant i stop thinking bout u?? why do you alwayz linger in my heart?? and u alwayz leave stainz there...u've neva eva tot watz going thru in my mind ryte now?? why dont you und me??? why is it soo hard for you to juz confront me and ask watz my pwob... sometimez i feel lyke letting go...but i realize dat this crush aint goin away!!! i am helpless... i have no idea wat to do... i try to move forward... but why do i alwayz stop to look bak?? look bak to wat ive done??

CRUSH- david archuleta

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

this song is dedicated to you...one day...i still believe you will cme to me...without any fear or sorrow... and dat day will come soon enough... datz wat i feel... datz wat i noe....

why is it soo hard???

2008-11-02T18:54:00.000-08:00

you make me feel that youre there for me alwayz...but i juz dun understand why are you sooo shy in front of me?? its not lyke i am gonna eat you ryte?? why do you act so scared in front of me?? then when you are far away,den you give me that desperate stare...lyke you really wanna hear somethin from me...but...i see you so scared of me...how do you wan me to come to you?? i noe you try to start a conv..bt smtimes i juz duno how to continue it...i noe you feel it too...why are you sooo scared?? i juz dunno wat to say...itz not lyke i am gonna go off my limits ryte?? i am also lyke you..you think my parents give me the freedom to do anything?? haha..be4 i go out oso...they will ask me hundreds of questions...i noe you are an idol..for mostly everyone...but i did not fall for dat idol...i fell for the real you... pls dun get me wrong... i noe some irritating ppl went and made our relationship worse... but at least you could have trusted me ryte?? why didnt you ask me once oso... i didnt noe oso wat they were sayin to you...sme ppl were juz jealous bout both of us...cant you see?? hu... = c.. i juz wish you would have asked me once... or trusted me...now becoz of this...you keep me hanging... you got me bleedin love... and to me...a guy should approach a gal..not a gal goes to a guy...dunt you get it?? i understand...i noe...dat youre shy or scared...but you cant be doin this foreva ryte?? you muz face your fears one day... be4 itz too late... you'd betta do smthin... but i juz want you to noe dat i will alwayz be there for you when you nid me...and my heart will alwayz be with you only... datz for sure... mizz ya durin da hols... hope we will keep in touch 4eva...mwuahxxx...

chris brown and muaxxx!!! soo purrfect!!! haaaaa....

2008-10-27T03:15:00.000-07:00

he is juzzz purrfect!!!i would really lurrveee to meet hymm...its my on and only dream...him coming to my door...and asking for my hand....haaa....dat would be heaven!!! but i think everythin happenz for itz own good...so i shall sit down and wait till wateva happens in lyfe...cant wait for u to come!!! mhwuaxxx...

hollaadays!!!

2008-10-24T23:17:00.000-07:00

yo ppls!!! wats up...well thank god exams went well n now diwali hols!!! yahoo!!! but smtimes i think to myself...wat am i without my parents...juz lurve demm....they've always been there for me and i dunno how to thank dem...i will neva eva poget wat dey've done for me...if there is anythin i can do for them dat will make dem happy, i would do anythin...includin givin my lyfe..well juz want ya to noe mum...papa...i will neva stop lovin you allthough there are complications sometimes...i noe everyone makes mistakes...i hope you will forgive me for whateva ive done...sowee ya if i have hurt yall!!! i didnt mean to!! luph ya!!! mwuahxxx...

2008-10-14T07:00:00.000-07:00

this is for all the ones in luv...this is for my fwenz who were alwayz there for me...anu,jaay,lil,aan,san,audrey,omg!!! so many larr..juz wanna thank who were there for me when i needed them...this is also for the pwefectorial board especially the FORM 2's!!! yan!!! this is for you...sit down...relax...and enjoy wateva u see in lyfe....mwuahxxxx....

WHEN U LOOK ME IN THE EYES-JONAS BROTHERS

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

Cause when you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

2008-10-13T18:40:00.001-07:00

wt is lyfe?? sometymes i juz look out of maself and i think...wat am i?? is this all a dream?? is this all a game of god?? or is it a painting?? why do humans have a lot of difficuilties in lyfe?? if we are ment to be in trouble...why did god create us?? i bet a parent cant see his children suffering...agreed?? well...datz why wat is lyfe?? wat am i?? who am i?? why am i here?? is there and objective for me to come in dis world?? i am confused...helppp!!!!

(ahemmxxx...for you info...i aranged all the 1 cents in to a flower shape and i took a pic of it...aha...)

hey!!!! its me(again)...hehe...

2008-09-17T19:07:00.000-07:00

Well!!!! i am back to rawk all your worlds out dere....ehe....bout me...hmMmMm...first of all...my name is gurkireth...ppl prefer to call me gur....well my dear fwenz call me gurri in a furry pot...it sounds dumb...but i think itz kinda cute...i study in main convent which is da best!!! the best part of all is i got to meet many new fwenz..and my one and only godsis....luv ya yan!!!! i am also given a post as a pwefect in skool....juzzzz lurveee skool....my hero...hMmMmM....chris brown!!!! juzzz lurveee him!!!! tell me wat he doesnt noe to do....he can dance...he has a great voice...he is damnnnn romantic...kay!!! if i start bout him....i cant stop!!! but i'd better now....if my fwenz see dis...they will say"Here she goes again!!!!"hehe...sowee...didnt mean to hurt you all...jkjk....well...hmphhhh...i dunno wat else to say lar....=p i just love ppl around me dat are spotting n juz luv 2 have fun!!!dats all bout me dat i can describe...