Eloquent insanity

i gotta go thru this now only...when my birthday's near and when i need to be in skul...ughh...why are you alwayz lingering around me??everywhere i only see one person...and thats u...why?? becoz i see god in you??(tujhme rab dikhta hein)or what?? WHAT izzit in you that really attracts me to come forward to you only?? why cant i juz look at a rich guy and feel for hym dat way? why you?? somehow...you pull me towards u...and i juz cant stop...stop coming bak to you...stop thinking of you...stop...loving you...itz sooooooo hard for me you noe...why does god make us suffer before we get smthin?? why doesnt he juz give us if he wants to?? why muz we juz cry for what we want?? to rememba hym??but what if ure alwayz the pious type...and u alwayz cherish god...why does he still make us suffer? itz so complicated...i juz dunno how to live a life thats so painful and filled with so much of sorrowness...i cant take it...someday my head's gonna burst and i think i may end in a hospital infront of a psycitrist...pray for me u guys...dun make this life useless...and i'll pray for all of you bak...this is how the world is ryte?? to give and take...haixxx...hope u all are not having this kind of probz and hope u all will not have it in future...thats a prayer...
love yall...
GUR...