Eloquent insanity

cant stop thinking bout u...why are you alwayz there? why dont u juz fade away...my life will be much more easier than feeling this guilt when i'm around u...why dont i juz let u go? is that what u really want from me? to let u go? i dun think thats possible...my world is all bout madness(becoz i have neva thought to leave u eventhough u are still not mine yet...)...i duno wat to do...i guess i'll have to confront u myself...coz...i understand ure shy and ure the most angelic thing ive eva seen in lyfe...but...isnt life all bout breaking the rules?? thats when we at least feel the fun once in a while...well...there are a bit improvements between me and u...lyke u started disturbing me and u being a little brave to come in front of me and being able to stare at me eventhough i noe u are staring...thats improvement...but...when will this end?? when will u come to me?? muz u really wait until itz too late?? are u testing me?? are you trying to see how faithful i am to you?? but...okay maybe for a while itz allryte...but u cant be lyke doing this for yearz ryte...if u really are testing me,pls pls PLS dun let me freak out...and make it too late...but...i assure u that i will neva stop praying for you lyke i alwayz do and i dun want this to lengthen summore...enough is ENOUGH...one thing i gotta say...dun test people's patience...itz not bout me...but...im scared if u do this to others...they might not lyke it...im tellin this for ur own good...coz...ure the most precious thing in the world that ive eva had...i cant see you breaking down...i wont be able to control myself...maybe ure feeling different...but im sure u seriously dunno how does a gal feel when she's neglected...she feels insecure when ure not there...pls do me a favour...pls help me...help me control my hardly controlable mind...u are the only one who can do it...and who i trust more than my life...lurve ya...