Eloquent insanity

i found out...u were lying to me...how could you to this to me??i trusted you more than my lyfe...i loved you soooooo much...i cant tell u how unconditionally i loved u...i tot...u were an angel that came into my lyfe to help me shine...but...u hated me...all along...now i noe...i dont demand anything from u...but im dissapointed in you...why didnt u juz give me off...or told me in a nyce way that u felt really uncomfy of wat i was doing to you...and i tot that u were there for me...and i tot u at least had a little love for me...i tot we were having fun...i tot that we were going on well...why??since when??how?? im sooo confused...and im scared to show my tears to anyone...coz im scared...i might burst until i cant control myself...if u keep doin dis...i dun think i can stay here anymore..id rather change my skul than seeing u everyday...smiling at me...u were wearing a mask juz to make me happy...how can u do this to me??didnt u ever think that how will i act when i find out wat were u doin?? what will u answer when i asked u what was ure prob?? why didnt u juz avoid me?? why didnt u juz tell me the truth... i hate it... when sm1 keeps away smthin from me...ughh....and especially sm1 i love...so much...i love u soooooo much....one thing i gotta say is if i love sm1...i REALLY love that person...theres no way anyone can change that...i loved u that i dun think a sys has eva loved her sys that much be4...i dun think anyone has eva loved her sys lyke i did...thats how much i love u...muz i even prove it to you?? i tot u knew?? u left me many questions wondering in my mind now...i have no idea wat to do...no idea where to go?? itz either...me confronting u to demand the truth,me letting u go quietly...or...me juz live with the fact that u will neva love me....