Eloquent insanity

hey ppls!!! im in kl finally...well...i tot this will distract me to do smthin else but cmin here is lyke...it made me feel more possibilities to mizz all my fwenz...ughh!! i cant take it anymore!! so much preasure on me...as being the eldest daughter and as being a systa to my annoyin sys...as being a purrfect pwefect n student...as being a fwen whos always being there...as being a princess to sm1 i love more than my lyfe... and an ordinary gal who lives in this world lyke every other person... im sick and tired of it!!! ive neva been in this state be4..i have nowhere else to go...im stuck...in this stinking world...i wish i could go far away from this galaxie and neva cme bak...sad...ill have to go thru all this consequences in lyfe...in order to success...and to reach the top...but what if u juz decide not to do it? what if uve reach that state and youre not happy that uve done it? is there a way to turn bak?? wouldnt it be difficuilt? this juz drives me crazy...i might land in a mental hospital smday...the reason why im thinking ahead is mayb becoz if have this little wish dat ill become a good scientist smday...a famous one...touch wood...ughh!! help me!! im in an emotional state now...and i dunno what to do...where to go...and what to achive and what not...im confused..